Week 1 of 2013

So I weighed myself, I was scared but I did it! Boy was I surprised!!!! I'm sitting pretty at 242lbs!!! So excited that I hadn't gained a ton like I thought I had.

Tomorrow I'm going to pick up a yoga mat so I can really get into yoga and now slip on the carpet.

Hope all is well!

New Year and New Resolutions.

Most people write these kind of posts on December 31st or the 1st of the year, me I'm writing today.  I've been thinking about coming back to writing on my blog now that I'm feeling normal again.  I had done really well for the first 6 months of 2012 on being healthy and weight loss... But then my Grandpa's cancer came back and anything that wasn't a habit went out the window.  There was lots of tears and emotional eating after we lost him in August but I'm finally doing better. 

What I have found to help me was getting projects down. I love working with my hands and I finally tackled some projects.  I made pillow covers for my sofa pillows, finally painted our bedroom doors (they were the grossest brown green I have ever seen!) and hall trim, and hung some floating shelves in our main bathroom.  When I sat down at my sewing machine I said out loud to myself, "hello old friend".  I have truly been missing this big part of who I am, taking part of it again has made me feel whole again.

Beautiful Bathroom. Basket on the shelf and the potted fake plant I got at Goodwill for 99cents!

Newly sewn pillow cases: Mustard Yellow with white polka dots, dusty blue zig zags, and beautiful Paris design to go with our art we picked out before we moved in together 8 years ago.

This is a before of the bedroom... the picture makes the colors look much better. We now have a white ceiling, glossy white trim and oatmeal walls.

Well On to my resolutions.

1. Healthy- eat at home, less processed food, higher quality ingredients (splurge on the local butter, organic sour cream)
2. Be Positive- I'm removing anything and everything I humanly can to be more positive. Unsubscribing to emails that I never open has really helped. I have also started removing people from my facebook that I don't need to that in your face contact with.
3. Fruggleness- Your going to think Wha!??! she just said splurge on butter and sour cream! Where I need to focus on is bringing in crap, just cause it's a good deal does not mean I need to stock up on 20 shampoos!
4. Blog more, I know I'm not the best writer and most of the time I DON'T proof read my posts but I enjoy it.  I'm going to try to get a post up at least once a week.

For those of you who are wondering where I am with my weight, I haven't stepped back on the scale but I'm guessing around 248-252lbs.  I'm hoping to see 230lb in March.

I'm off to try some yoga tonight to relax. Here's the video I'm going to try.

http://youtu.be/e6Wt9CFb-4s

Take care and remember tomorrow is always within our reach.

Friday Check-in!

Guess who was at the gym 2 times in one week? ME haha of course me, it's my blog. My weight is holding steady at 235lbs but I'm ok w/ that after enjoying over 1/2 a bottle of wine last night at the downtown's Girl's Night Out thing. Worked in my MIL's furniture store with my older SIL, it's always a blast.

Ok so back to the gym, did about 20-25 minutes of the treadmill, some running, some walking on an incline. All good stuff. Got to see the director of training and he's like I need to meet with you to set up a new plan.  It's such a happy go lucky guy, and so motivating if you are motived by one of those people. So next Friday I'll be meeting with him.  Next Friday is also Homecoming for my cheerleaders! AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhh HAHA good stuff.

Now it's time to clean, laundry, shower, and then go coach...

here's a great one of them where you really can't see their faces. Love these girls as much as I love my puppy.

Stay happy, healthy, and smile!

Weight Loss, a ride or journey

When I think of a ride I think of Point A to Point B. Whether smooth and enjoyable or fast and crazy there is an end of it.

A Journey is endless full of ups and downs, twists and turns. Working though each and every moment. 

I'm down about 5lbs and almost back to my lowest from the weight I'd lost earlier this year. I was very disappointed in myself for getting off track but life happens and when it's not the normal for you, you can easily fall back to the old unhealthy normal. thankfully I was off for only 3-4months before getting back "to the beach". I feel so so so much better losing the simple carbs, after a week without them I no longer want to eat the entire produce section of potatoes, the candy aisle, and every box of pasta/cereal in my house.

It's fun to think that in about 37-38lbs more lost and I'll be in "onederland"! Can I make it by Christmas, that would be exciting.  I just need to find a way to balance everything. Working a full time job, coaching definably makes for balance challenges. Not to mention taking care of 3 cats, a dog, and a husband.  I'm so thankful that my husband has taken over cooking as I hate  to cook!

PCOS? Maybe...

So I'm finally giving in and going to the doctor. Losing weight is not working well... I have nearly every symptom of PCOS except for the missing periods. Hold my excess weight in my middle region, excess hair on face and hands (yuck), hair loss on my head (my hair is sooo thick that I still have to have my hair thinned by the hair stylist.

I hate going to doctors, terrified of what they are going to tell me. Over time I've gone from 172lb in 2004 to 220lbs by 2005 and then 240lb by 2006. Now I'm around 240-50lbs. I would like to get down to 160lbs. I was told my blood pressure was on the high side of normal in 2006, I cut out frozen meals and canned soup and in 2006 my bp was back to the same reading I got in 2004! 

Going to plan for a full blood work-up to see what is all out of whack to cause me these issues, I assume PCOS but there could be other things.

Wish me luck on finding out what's up with my body and hopefully a smooth transition to a healthier me. Just hope I can get my hubby on board to help me with the food aspect.

Two Steps Forward, One step back

Wow feeling very depressed and motived at fleeting moments.  Made a meal plan for the next 4 days and got all the food needed to follow the South Beach plan. Hubby asked me where the junk food was, replied "fat lady doesn't need junk food but there's yogurt and pudding in the fridge" he ate 2 puddings and 2 yogurt cups.

Monday: Spinach & feta stuff chicken breasts w/ oven roasted brussel sprouts and onion
Tuesday: Small steak w/ mushrooms & asparagus
Wednesday: Taco salad
Thursday: Zucchini, summer squash, leek, and shrimp
Friday we'll grill something

Breakfast is 1c almond milk, 1T hemp seed, 1/2 banana

Lunch is left overs w/ salad.

I was feeling so shitty that I was f*ck it I'll step on the scale, happily I found that I had only gained 10lbs over the last 3 months instead of the 15-20 I thought I did.  So I'm at 242lb, I can deal with that.

I start coaching tomorrow and I'm very nervous that I won't have a team since I can't get a hold of one girl and I only have 2 more! Ya 3 girls, that sucks...

Here's to a good nights sleep and a better day.

Emotional eating

I have been gone, hiding out, and eating... and eating way too much.  Work sucks, my grandpa's cancer took a bad turn and we lost him on the 10th. 

I'm hoping to find a way to work though my emotional eating. Whether I'm happy, sad, mad, excited, depressed... I eat and eat and eat.

I have coaching season starts on Tuesday that means I won't be home till 8:15 at night after working all day. I'm going to have to plan way ahead to eat right, I want to get back to eating the "South Beach" way as it is truly easy and I felt fab but the allure of fast food and deep fried cheese nuggets won over when you feel like crap.

Till next time.