Think Positive, Be Positive

There is something that I have tried to teach the girls I had coached for 4 years.  If you are positive positive things will find you.  You see these teenage girls get picked on for such silly things and it hurts them so much.  How often to we pick on ourselves,  negative self talk, emotional eating.  All this negativity causes us to back petal and continue down that path we were trying to move away from. 

I'm now working towards keeping all negative thoughts out of my brain.  No complaining about work, being tired, not even the weather.  Keeping positive isn't the easiest thing the 1st day or even the 2nd the more you practice it the less you think negatively about things.  You start brushing off the negative things your coworkers complain about, you find the positive things in the grey boring things. 

When I focus on health, fitness, and work out I find that everything is easy.  When I forgo my hyper focusing on getting healthy I start slipping more and more and the weight goes right back on.  Through positive thinking and planning I shall be who I envision myself to be.

Stay strong my friends.

New Year and New Resolutions.

Most people write these kind of posts on December 31st or the 1st of the year, me I'm writing today.  I've been thinking about coming back to writing on my blog now that I'm feeling normal again.  I had done really well for the first 6 months of 2012 on being healthy and weight loss... But then my Grandpa's cancer came back and anything that wasn't a habit went out the window.  There was lots of tears and emotional eating after we lost him in August but I'm finally doing better. 

What I have found to help me was getting projects down. I love working with my hands and I finally tackled some projects.  I made pillow covers for my sofa pillows, finally painted our bedroom doors (they were the grossest brown green I have ever seen!) and hall trim, and hung some floating shelves in our main bathroom.  When I sat down at my sewing machine I said out loud to myself, "hello old friend".  I have truly been missing this big part of who I am, taking part of it again has made me feel whole again.

Beautiful Bathroom. Basket on the shelf and the potted fake plant I got at Goodwill for 99cents!

Newly sewn pillow cases: Mustard Yellow with white polka dots, dusty blue zig zags, and beautiful Paris design to go with our art we picked out before we moved in together 8 years ago.

This is a before of the bedroom... the picture makes the colors look much better. We now have a white ceiling, glossy white trim and oatmeal walls.

Well On to my resolutions.

1. Healthy- eat at home, less processed food, higher quality ingredients (splurge on the local butter, organic sour cream)
2. Be Positive- I'm removing anything and everything I humanly can to be more positive. Unsubscribing to emails that I never open has really helped. I have also started removing people from my facebook that I don't need to that in your face contact with.
3. Fruggleness- Your going to think Wha!??! she just said splurge on butter and sour cream! Where I need to focus on is bringing in crap, just cause it's a good deal does not mean I need to stock up on 20 shampoos!
4. Blog more, I know I'm not the best writer and most of the time I DON'T proof read my posts but I enjoy it.  I'm going to try to get a post up at least once a week.

For those of you who are wondering where I am with my weight, I haven't stepped back on the scale but I'm guessing around 248-252lbs.  I'm hoping to see 230lb in March.

I'm off to try some yoga tonight to relax. Here's the video I'm going to try.

http://youtu.be/e6Wt9CFb-4s

Take care and remember tomorrow is always within our reach.

Two Steps Forward, One step back

Wow feeling very depressed and motived at fleeting moments.  Made a meal plan for the next 4 days and got all the food needed to follow the South Beach plan. Hubby asked me where the junk food was, replied "fat lady doesn't need junk food but there's yogurt and pudding in the fridge" he ate 2 puddings and 2 yogurt cups.

Monday: Spinach & feta stuff chicken breasts w/ oven roasted brussel sprouts and onion
Tuesday: Small steak w/ mushrooms & asparagus
Wednesday: Taco salad
Thursday: Zucchini, summer squash, leek, and shrimp
Friday we'll grill something

Breakfast is 1c almond milk, 1T hemp seed, 1/2 banana

Lunch is left overs w/ salad.

I was feeling so shitty that I was f*ck it I'll step on the scale, happily I found that I had only gained 10lbs over the last 3 months instead of the 15-20 I thought I did.  So I'm at 242lb, I can deal with that.

I start coaching tomorrow and I'm very nervous that I won't have a team since I can't get a hold of one girl and I only have 2 more! Ya 3 girls, that sucks...

Here's to a good nights sleep and a better day.

Slacker <- That's me!

Wowza have I been slacking and definitely feeling it... meaning I feel like poo! Eating way too much simple sugar (picture bowls of ice cream, chip and dip, white bread galore!) and it must stop!

I love love love to eat out, growing up it was always a "reward" for good grades to go out to dinner or get an ice cream treat. Now I turn to crappy MSG filled restaurant food like I'm addicted too it. I can't stop eating it, well I can stop eating it I just have to plan ahead and not be a lazy bum!  It would also help if I could find away to get my hubby to be more excited about eating healthy with me. He's not a fan of some of the new things I made that I love (such as this recipe from Pasta Queen http://pastaqueen.com/blog/2005/12/recipe-stuffed-portabello-mushrooms/) I believe it wasn't flavorful enough for him. My sister who is the world's pickiest eater ate one.

Working to recommit myself to making wiser/healthy food choices and working out minimum 5 days a week. I miss feeling energized and seeing myself shrink. I can't wait to share clothes with my sister!

I really need to find a way to become addicted to calorie counting since I know if I track those I'd be able to lose the weight with out a question.  Moving forward and not looking back...