Looking Forward 2015 Goals

Home Life:
- find balance in cleaning and laundry (even if I have to hire someone to scrub my floors)
-Purchase a 2nd income property (duples, triplex, or storefront with rental)

Fitness:
- Lift weights 3x per week
- swim or run 1-2x per week

Nutrition:
- Continue with my Isa shakes and increase them for lunches
- add Primrose and Biotin suppliments
- drink more wanter

Work:
- Quit my day job!
- Help DH build his IT company

Dog Rescue:
- Learn more about training
- Help find more dogs homes

Every Day Battle

I haven't been doing much of anything expect for work lately, and eating out.  Working 10+hours some days.  Still happily stuck around 240lbs even with eating like crap.

I've always had skin that hasn't been clear.  I've never had the issues that some people have but I have a few blemishes at a time and they always leave dark marks behind of my fair skin.  I finally gave in after trying a million different products from the drug stores (natural ingredients and not) and bought Proactive.  After the 1st week I'm impressed, I had tried the original formula many years ago and that just made my skin mad, red, dry, gross.  Tried their new system and very happy with how moisturizing my skin feels along with the slow changes I see in my skin.  I've seen a lot of change with my black heads and minor fading of my dark marks on my cheeks.

I keep going back and forth on eating "south beach" style or just sticking with whole foods.  Working towards whole foods and leaning on the low carb south beach background.

Took this photo with my phone camera today, really can't tell how different my skin is but I love my new hair color.

Moving on down (in sizes)

Yippy I can fit into a pair of Old Navy 16's!  I may have a hugest muffin top but I can get them on and breath.  I stomach fat is very... smooshy... I wounder is some sort of belly band or tank would help with the look...  I also have some Levi's 18th that I can fit in pretty well, can't wait to lose another 10lbs or so so they look nicer.  I was really hoping that I'd lose the weight before my thighs wore though my last jeans.

I spent the day hunting for a mustard yellow cardigan but I had no luck.  I tired TJ Maxx, Target, Kohls, Boston Store... none, nada.  Going to hit the mall and try Old Navy and maybe some of the plus size stores if I get desperate..

New Change New Job

So Thursday on my way to the vet office early in the morning my phone rings and it was a call from a company that had sent me a rejection letter almost a month to the date.  The cat is meowing backseat and I'm about to jump out of my seat cause I'm so shocked and excited.  Positive thinking worked, I wanted a new job, I pictured myself happy in a new place of employment.

I give my two week notice on Monday and I'm a bit scared because I love my co-workers and my boss.  The company I work for currently isn't doing well so I feel bad leaving with only 2 weeks for them to find someone and make things work.  Most people don't know all that I do for the company so I have made a whole list of what I do, when, and how to do it.  I hope that helps them transition.

I did go to the gym today, that felt nice.  With my new job I'll be getting out of work at 3:30 so I'll be able to hit the gym right after work and miss the 5pm rush!!  I'm so excited!!! Not to mention  I will no longer have a total commute of an hour I get back almost and hour!

Think Positive, Be Positive

There is something that I have tried to teach the girls I had coached for 4 years.  If you are positive positive things will find you.  You see these teenage girls get picked on for such silly things and it hurts them so much.  How often to we pick on ourselves,  negative self talk, emotional eating.  All this negativity causes us to back petal and continue down that path we were trying to move away from. 

I'm now working towards keeping all negative thoughts out of my brain.  No complaining about work, being tired, not even the weather.  Keeping positive isn't the easiest thing the 1st day or even the 2nd the more you practice it the less you think negatively about things.  You start brushing off the negative things your coworkers complain about, you find the positive things in the grey boring things. 

When I focus on health, fitness, and work out I find that everything is easy.  When I forgo my hyper focusing on getting healthy I start slipping more and more and the weight goes right back on.  Through positive thinking and planning I shall be who I envision myself to be.

Stay strong my friends.

Restart South Beach?

So I've been having a hard time with eating well.  We're trying to eat at home more often to save more money to purchase more rental property.  I'm looking at restarting the South Beach Diet.  It worked really worked when I first did it and I lost 25lbs with eating on plan and exercise and weight training.

I'm working on getting enough recipes together that will keep my hubby interested and happy for a while.

I found with the South Beach plan I wasn't finding myself overly hunger at any time because it focuses on lots of veggies (even at breakfast!), high fiber and high protein.

I'm going to try and post each day's meals once I start.

Weekend Check-in

Things are crazy and usual, I truly dream of a day that I can have a schedule home.  I hit the gym hard on Monday and Saturday and my clothes is fitting better but no movement on the scale.  I really need to get a full length so I can do some chubby girl outfit of the day and just to track my style and size as things change.

Here's my bottom 1/2 from Valentines day! Sorry for the ugly carpet... I was at work.